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listen I know it's heartbreaking that Claudia dies and it's understandable to wish she didn't, but let's please not accuse the writers of fridging her. to do so is a fundamental misunderstanding of the story and is frankly insulting to the intelligence and skill of the writers of the show.
Claudia's death, and the overwhelming grief and regret her parents experience because of it, is quite literally the point of the entire story. she dies because Anne's daughter Michele died of leukemia when she was five years old and there was nothing she or her husband could do to prevent it.
writing IWTV was how Anne coped with the unimaginable loss of a parent losing her child. she created a story about a little girl that could not die and then killed her anyway. Claudia's death is a senseless, unavoidable tragedy, just like Michele's was. the grief that haunts Louis and Lestat for the rest of their lives is the same grief that haunted Anne and her husband.
so when you're accusing people of killing Claudia off to benefit a story about two men, please remember that in real life sometimes parents lose their children. please remember Michele Rice.
she's the reason Claudia exists.
she's also the reason Claudia cannot be saved.
#interview with the vampire#claudia de lioncourt#iwtv#lestat de lioncourt#louis de pointe du lac#saw some rancid takes on twitter and i just can't not say something#like how do you encounter a story so clearly about the fathomless grief that comes with losing a child and blaming your partner and yoursel#and somehow finding a way to live again after years and years of suffering--not forgetting NEVER forgetting--but living and loving again#and go 'the writers just hate women. claudia should never have died'#like you're right that Claudia shouldn't have died. Michele shouldn't have died either.#but she did. and so Claudia did. and her parents will never stop grieving her.#iwtv spoilers
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cheers to the future of humanity (and the future of us)
[ID: Digital illustration in color of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun. The illustration takes place during the ship/home arc, specifically chapter 21. At the center, Vash is grabbing Wolfwood by the collar and pulls him into a kiss in the middle of a celebration. The pair is colored in vibrant warm hues while their surroundings are colored in cooler colors like green and teals. Luida, Brad, Meryl, and Milly are shown amongst the crowd, occupied in the celebrations as Vash and Wolfwood share a moment by themselves at the center. END ID]
#vashwood#trigun#trigun maximum#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#hospital yuri (explodeds) like any average vw enjoyer i will never get over that arc#specifically the scene where they heard the news of earth ships coming and did that little handshake they somehow conjured or#Had already. and then the entire ship had a party... meryl and milly started drinking immediately from joy and dragged vash and ww to get#wasted too and overall celebrate together. the chapter moves quickly just like how the hope was quickly withered out and died just hours#later when knives destroyed it. BUT IM JUST THINKING ABOUT IN THE MOMENT OF IT ALL bc in the same chapter#ww asks for a chance for tomorrow and then gets news of earth ships coming. in this same arc vash is thinking of all the things he needs to#resolve so his home doesn't get attacked so the people he love doesn't have to die and the humans he wants to protect gets to live.#i feel like deep down they both semi-recognize that it can't be this easy and regardless of earth ships coming- there's still a wait for#them to arrive and they have to hold out. and regardless ww still has a mission to follow through and vash knows knives would find out#but in that mood of celebration the entire ship brought in - they can at least let themselves relax for a moment and indulge#how they basically engaged with no violence for the few days they were on that ship coaxing them into domesticity... i feel like their#thoughts would wander to somewhere soft and all#allowing them to push aside the tiptoeing and tenseness and be sweet for a night#ruporas art
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Firefly Wedding is so…
It’s so
It’s them. It’s "It’s just a firefly, they’re meant to die soon. Why should I care about the sick, or the poor?"

It’s "I was purposely trying to scare you and push you away to see how far you were willing to go with your act, how desperate you were to play with my feelings as if I was a fool, but it didn’t work."
It’s "I know you’re just using me but now I care. Please keep using me. I need you to need me."
It’s choosing to give her her freedom anyways. Because your love is no longer all about you, no longer selfish. Because this love isn’t just a shallow balm to soothe your complexes anymore.
It’s being betrayed, finally facing the lies and no longer pretending you both don’t know that this is a farce, but desperately wanting to keep it going anyways. It’s "I should hate you now. Why don’t I? Hey, tell me we’ll go through with the plan, tell me you’ll marry me after all. Otherwise, why am I still here? Why don’t I want to leave? You act like you don’t need me but I still need you."
Like that’s so revolutionary for a yandere story. The self-delusion is strong, denial that things have changed despite it being impossible to truly believe, BUT HE STAYS. It’s no longer selfish 😭😭
"I don’t care about you anymore, I won’t help you. Get yourself killed for all I care." <- Jumps to her rescue 3 milliseconds later when she almost falls down a ladder/roof. It happens twice. The ‘lying and trying to emotionally distance yourself from something to protect yourself and not get hurt’ defense mechanism is blatant and it’s failing really bad.
It’s "My sense of duty and goals to have accomplished something useful in my short life are making me do this, but I do want you to stay with me." The yandere stuff here gets turned on its head because what he says is empty where it matters and meaningful where it matters. It’s knowing that if Satoko asks him not to kill anyone he won’t, but knowing that he won’t give up on her no matter what, even if she’s unattainable, even if she’s sickly, even if she pushes him away like just before. It’s so thinly veiled for "I’m determined to see my goal through, but that’s not what I want. If you just so happen to take me away and I don’t try to run away hard enough then we can elope and be free. I want to have an excuse to leave with you. Please give up on marrying me. Please don’t. I want that, but I can’t."
It’s "If I didn’t burn brightly in my short firefly life, then what was the point?"
Except that burning brightly doesn’t have to mean making big achievements, or being useful to your family.
It can be living happily, living for the ones you love, fighting for them. It can be worth to risk it for things that actually matter to you.



It’s giving your heart to someone, figuratively and literally. To lend it to them even if it might get used or battered, for as long as it beats to use your body to protect them, even if you have to sacrifice yourself. A love that burns bright into a bonfire before they both turn to ashes. Unwise but wholehearted.



It’s despite even that, needing grandiose gestures to be able to trust that this is real. It’s needing external cues that prove it to feel safe in their love existing, other people to confirm that he’s not crazy, that this is happening and this is how they both feel. Their love has been fake, both being a warped love and being a lie, only being out of necessity or because the other was the only one willing to offer it to them, offering comfort, safety, support and care. And showing that they care is the most loving of all. It’s despite everything falling back into old habits that "Oh if she was miserably worried for me then that means she’s not indifferent to me! That’s good!" And then once again being taken aback by her, by her earnestness and by her will. Because oh, no, this goes deeper than that. She cares. It’s love.




It’s opening your heart up to love, and both being punished and rewarded for it.
But most of all it’s

And it being the most loving thing he’d ever heard
Firefly Wedding is so…



And yet it’s also



The complicated and hurtful nature of love and the joy and light it brings are two sides of the same coin, because that’s what inevitably happens when you care about something. But caring about a firefly isn’t a waste even however short lived it is, or how hard the loss will inevitably hit you. Isn’t their light just such a wonder to witness?
#hotaru no yomeiri#firefly wedding#firefly marriage#firefly wedding fandom how we feeling#Spoilers#he’s like Denji except. Worse#Lmk if i need to take out the pictures or smth#I genuinely don’t know if firefly wedding will end happily or in tragedy I AM SCARED??!#Iirc the very beginning is a letter that says how she died?? Anyways i am so fine and cool and collected#Ah yes my favorite genre dark romance that manages to become healthy somehow by the end of it <3#Can’t believe they invented love in 2023#It’s like seeing them slowly work through loving someone loving yourself and loving life live it’s so good#Gimme the sad af dark romance about what it means to love someone 😤
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It's kinda fucked up how I simultaneously need Tape 2 already and also dread it. Like I wanna know how it ends but I know it will destroy me and I want to live in the liminal space where everything can be potentially okay.
#billie's rambling again#lost records bloom and rage#lost records spoilers#<- discussed in tags#like god everything about kat makes me scared and I almost don't want to open the pandora's box.#and just pretend she'll just get better somehow#because I know what will happen and I just want to delay it as much as possible#like idk the choice is so clearly going to be something truly painful regarding whether kat lives or dies that I'm just... already sufferin#like the pain that I'm gonna feel about the ending is already reverberating back into the past
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i have to genuinely ask. what is the point of the last episode??? they just. killed dean to make us sad. five straight minutes of dean dying and saying gayer shit to his brother than the angel he was supposed to be in love with. sam being miserable. what. was. the. point.
#s15 ep20#I DONT GET IT#SERIOUSLY LIKE. WAS THIS JUST SUPPOSED TO BE A LAST JAB AT THE FANS??? THERES NO SENSE IN IT???#when the alarm clock rang i was fully prepared to hear heat of the moment. somehow i didnt. nonsense#so what dean’s on an eternal road trip waiting for sam. and cas isn’t even there with him??? whats the point#actively crying over the ending screaming what was the point at my screen#sam had to just?? live his life?? he died surrounded by memories of his family but they aren’t even THERE#they shouldve just killed him with dean fuck off#that was just?? an extended form of torture?? they couldve made the ending about sam but this isnt even really about him#it’s not even about the brothers after dean dies its just. sick. its awful#this is the sort of ending chuck would write. eric kripke i will end you someday#sam lives the rest of his life without his brother dies of old age?? whats the point if HIS FAMILY ARENT THERE#he’s basically dying alone. his son might be blood but his real family is all gone. whats the fuckingg point#devastating i’m gonna watch the pilot to cheer myself up i cant believe i cried over that fuckass ending#supernatural#spn#spn finale#sam winchester#dean winchester#sam and dean#sam yaps about spn
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indulgence
[ALT ID: A digital illustration of two men making out, seen through a window on a rainy night. Both were long, layered robes and one is pressed against a tapestry on the wall with his head tilted back to let the other kiss down his neck.]
#what if u were the young ruler of a nascent empire put on the throne at way too young an age#and i was a hotshot commander in the elite/sacred guard sworn to your family#and i never rlly gave a shit for empire or houses but against all my better judgement i cared abt and loved you#and neither of us ever said anything bc the divide between our class and stations was too great#but we both knew there was smth there#and then u died#and i had no one to blame but myself and then the world started literally falling apart#and so i gave up my title and my accolades#everything i had spent my life working for bc without you they meant nothing#and then i found you again in the land that they said killed you#and you were alive but you were a god and you had been dead. i had known you to be dead#and somehow we both had to keep living#what then#anyway all to say these two deserve to discover the joys of neck kisses#calsir#my art#story: tcp#ch: sirion#ch: callebero#this was a rlly shitty sketch that i hated for like. at least a year mb more#and comparing this (even with its bonkers perspective issues) to that is v v funny to me
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thinking abt old men kl… literally always…. bc what if they were old…and married…and if they didnt have to wear those fuckass belts…
my kl fic 🫣
#old man lance having to button his old man husband's jacket because he's too busy talking about the kraggle#i forgot about rendering the tablet so you get a cameraless ipad#i feel dangerously old and being older than all my fav characters when i used to be younger than them is?#really though i also feel incredibly young#but also unaccomplished#but then what are you supposed to have done at 22. living should be enough#klance#vld#vld lance#vld keith#kl#klance fanart#keith#mine art#lance#vld klance#kind of a lazy render but also it somehow took me 8hrs#i’m very unhappy with my art rn#but i do like some parts of this a lot and i’ve been doing so anatomy stuff in my sketchbook#so hopefully i learn something#and start liking my art again#all i see rn though are mistakes#but legend ibyms did like my last drawing on instagram so maybe im being hard on myself#that was lowkey my magnum opus though#going wild in tags because im convinced that my followers who voluntarily followed me hate me and dont want to hear me speak (dies)
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here’s my kowt bingo I’m excited to see how I do
#luke.txt#kowt spoilers#wind and truth spoilers#(just in case I’m like 100% right. somehow)#I had like all 3 possible Dalinar fates (he dies he lives he becomes an eternal soul trapped in the cycle of rebirth)#because I worry about him a lot#left column is Bad Things and right column is Good Things
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i lie awake at night thinking about the marston daughter.
#she is somehow nothing and everything all at once#i cannot stop considering what she means and what that time looked like#died how#who was she#what was her name?#did she ever have one?#did she live days or was it weeks or months maybe even years.#was it at all?#was john excited?#did abigail tell him immediately or did she wait out of fear#how was jack?#i even wonder about uncle during it all#also imagining john with a daughter#stop#john marston
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I haven’t said this enough recently but I’d like to take a moment to remind everyone…or idk…whoever sees this post…
That I love Obi-Wan Kenobi.
Thank you.
#that man is a disaster and he is the best#i love him and all his infinite sadness and regret and trauma and heartbreak and failures#and anxieties and worries and self loathing and self doubt#all his hubris and sarcasm and snarkiness and sassiness and flirtiness#and how everyone who meets him either falls in love with and/or wants him dead#i love him for all his negotiating and meditating and nerdiness#i love his ability to befriend everyone he meets and his love of animals and all living things and how hard he tries to hold onto hope#his desperate need to be good enough and his love of adventure and his tendency to get kidnapped and his hatred of flying#and above all i love him for the endless love he carries inside of him#how he fought so hard to never give up on anakin and how he spent the rest of his life watching over his kids#how he learned to be himself again after spending time with a feisty ten year old leia#how he softly cried as qui gon and satine died in his arms and how he refused to be the one to kill anakin#how he saw padme and anakin in their kids and how they reminded him to have faith in whatever remaining good there was left in the galaxy#this man had this insane life and went through so much and somehow never fell to the dark side#even when he and the ones he loved were always at the center of all that damn tragedy#yeah i love obi wan#star wars#obi wan kenobi#the clone wars#a new hope#the phantom menace#attack of the clones#revenge of the sith#obi wan kenobi series#star wars original trilogy#star wars prequel trilogy#kate's post
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✌🏻
#I’d just like one day that I get to enjoy without every happy moment being ruined#by a family member mentioning my dad and the way he died#it sends me to my own private hell#and I’d love to just enjoy a day#I remember writing how bad my birthday was because my mom wouldn’t stop mentioning my dad and how he died#she even got me gifts from him and wrote as though he was writing#and then talked about his death all day#and while I didn’t get gifts from him#the rest was pretty much the same#and I miss him too. like horribly bad#but I also talked with him about death a lot#and he told me how he’d hate for our lives to center around his death#and he’d hate for us to not be happy#so I try and I try and I try#but it’s like it’s not allowed here#because my mom’s grief- according to her- is worse than mine#because I didn’t choose my dad but she chose her husband#and somehow that makes all the difference#and ‘while I know you’ve never had a Christmas without him I haven’t had one without him since we dated…’#why can’t both of our pain just be pain??#and why can’t we be allowed to make happy memories now?#sorry for rambling it’s been a long and v hard day
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#Le Loup#live on KEXP#funny enough they somehow switched the titles of this song and I had a dream I died? idk how that happened#ive corrected it here obviously.#also I found this on NPR's website
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So........ What about vash and ww from Badlands Rumble? 🥺
there issss 🥺🥺🥺
#and they're my favourite actually cuz blr ww is somehow the combination of all ww in one#also i actually like blr bcs that's the closest I could get to scenarios of 'vash died and ww lives'#and i am ashamed to admit i'd infuriatingly let blr vash have his way just because he is cute#idt im including them bcs there's not enough content i could make out of them but i hope this tiny snack could satisfy you anonn 🥺🥺#myuask#myuminjidoodle
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x if you even care
#i will be honest. i had a moment. i am feeling so low with this fucking sickness.#and i realized i didn't called my grandma today#and then it somehow spiralled into some terrible mix of admiration and envy#because i will never have what charles does. i will never have a family like this to live through the big life moments with me.#almost died during my little cry but i am okay now we move on#but if i had to watch this again. so do you. thank me later#e
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In another universe Christine and Erik skipped town and they live happily together raising Gustave...
#poto#phantom of the opera#lnd#love never dies#christerik#erikstine#christine daae#erik poto#the phantom#gustave de chagny#i just be ramblin#Hey am I still hung up on Erik's dream in the book of just. Putting on a mask and getting married to his beloved and raising a kid and#having a normal domestic life?#MAYBE#Maybe I imagine a future where this worked out somehow#Where Erik has everything set up to live his perfect normal life#And honestly putting on that perfect mask turns out to be bittersweet as he doesn't...love it as much as he assumed#after all he'd only wanted to be accepted and to live normally rather than be feared (a wish to cover one's features out of a desire for#connection rather than a genuine hatred of them)#So I imagine Erik and Christine staying somewhere private or going on a private walk under the moonlight#and after such a long day‚ Christine tugs off the mask#And she looks him in the eyes and loves him‚ kisses him#Oh to be able to spend time with your family‚ the only people you can remove your mask around#And for them to accept you wholly as you are‚ love you as you are‚ even after hearing for so long that this kind of life was an#impossibility for you#Erik teaching Gustave how to play instruments and how to train the instrument that is one's voice#the two watching Christine sing on street corners as she used to do with her father (perhaps even playing for her)#They make me emotional....
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started a sourdough starter!!! It’s not even that much abt bread; I just like the idea of having a pet and this is about the max amount of responsibility I’m looking for rn
#an emotional support living flour sludge if u will#altho the conditions aren’t ideal rn: it’s negative degrees so I don’t have a warm enough of a place probably so if (big if) it starts to#ferment it’ll take longer (which means u gotta be extra much on the lookout for mold)#could put it in the oven with just the light on but that freaks me out; I don’t wanna have the oven on for like days (even tho it wouldn’t#actually be on)#also I only have all-purpose flour & whole meal is the best one to induce fermentation#also the flour is past it’s best before date bc I haven’t rly been baking (also one of thr reasons I’m doing this bc like gotta use#up the flour somehow)#so u know we’ll see if anything comes out of this#if nothing else at least I’ll have a project for a couple days#also I’m not naming it yet; that’s for when it’s going strong bc I don’t need to be crying after getting emotionally attached to a#blob of flour & water when said blob dies tragically#march 2024#2024
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